shadow of doubt

 

 

In the blurry seconds of my daily life

Musing the elusive Muse

Seeing the unseen Imaginings

I spilled my undecided minorities

                     - of the future, so bleak…

 

Why-oh-Why?

Do I fear the shadow of doubt???

Dreary weary soul has loosen his edge

                             into a fading dream, unfulfilled…

 

Needles of Reality

    pinned-up to the heart as if it’s normal thing

It stings a bit, yet it’s bearable…

I know & bear the sharp truth

It doesn’t hurt that bad, because I understand,

with all the compassion I could master,

will to live the life I feel for what’s right

 

so…

I persist the moment I resist

              the overflowing dark void.

I light-up the candle

       to stay warm as darkness blinds many things.

                                      and becomes cold.

 

Then…

I walk in a darkened path with a heavy burden

I don’t mind as long as...

I hold so dear the light so clear,

   for I can live another day

      until I find the fuel of my being…

 

Author's Note

This piece is very raw, written today as I was trying to force myself to write, then I felt like this is an outburst of my emotional journey as of the moment. Darkness is at bay and I am getting agnostic on my faith - thinking I am probably agnostic, but no, I try to light up the candle that I always have, for me to hope and to continue on believing of what's right of my own understanding...

Credits to the photo:
un inconnu by tuminka

Reviews

[Tai Ryens]

Blurry seconds of daily life in the throes of the darkness of what seems to be an eternal darkness symbolizing our inability to know the future and the torch that lights the path forward just a bit, so we can have an idea of where we are going.. Or perhaps the torch symbolizes the knowledge and acceptance that we don't nor will ever know the future, and the light represents the comfort we have in our surroundings, allowing us to move with relatively less fear in the darkness while we await something to let us know what our purpose is. Stellar write, I enjoyed it.

[Frieda P]

Lots of depth here Pax, so often we doubt our beliefs and lose faith in our own authenticity. It's an emotional roller coaster feeling that fear, only we can light our own path, well said my sweet friend.

[Pax]

Thank you very much, my friend, I agree with you, fear will always be there, and its a ride of a lifetime that we need to pass and survive... I am grateful...

[Glen Yumang Manese]

Seems a self-reflective type of verse here --- Pax...

I do see the struggle which binds this read as a reader...
the entirety of the work in riddled with much exploratory feeling ---
and a sense of guidance carries the ending ---
for which you put forth hope and reassurance...

I do see areas where you could reorder the wording and give a bit more...
but as always this is just IMPO --- just to give an add touch to this work...