landmines

In poetry I unload to explode

To break free from all the dynamite

I usually kept hidden

My passive nature makes me resistant

to its pollutants. 

Sometimes they’re more like landmines

Awaiting for someone

Who stomp the wrong buttons 

Then detonate

And explode between my shouts

And cries.

 

In all honesty

No matter how resistant I am to become resilient 

my core is too vulnerable to crumble

By a simple backslash of toxic tongues

And suddenly I fall in my knees to simply walk away

No battle is worth an effort

When you know it’s just pride

Battling himself.

Author's Note

The poem speaks for itself, but I just want to confirm yes, I tend to bottled-up my feelings. That is why sometimes I easily get depressed. I don’t speak-out a lot or just careful not to hurt anyone with my words. So in poetry I rant almost everything so that it will not eat me into depression.

Its hurts me when I look back, to those people who say mean things to me that I simply ignore because it’s not worthy to argue anymore, they tend to get stuck on their own opinion, too closed to have an open mind.

thank you for reading me

Reviews

[emmajoy]

Your sadness and frustration about life in general so often wraps around your words. Tis sad that you're made so aware of unkindness and indifference because you don't deserve such behaviour. However, sometimes tis better to speak out, smile or shrug.. not let folk think they have the upper hand or power to offend. Focus on friendship and good things, my friend.. wrap yourself in those, truly can help.

This poem is superbly expressed.

[Costa Siwale]

Good piece Pax, poetry is emotion, let it explode.

[Pax]

thank you my friend.

[Costa Siwale]

No problem

[kclyaine]

Its the same case as me, but people around me blame me for something I didn't do. They think everything i do was wrong, yet they verbally abuse me for no reason at all. I try to stop listening but I'm not deaf, so I keep my feeling hidden. Emotions isn't show normally within my face. But I know one day, I would cry suddenly, without a reason, for hours within a day.

[Pax]

I truly understand your feelings my friend, it does happen to me sometimes...thank you for sharing your story...

[Michael G. Smith]

I love the two last lines the best. It's taken many years to just let people be idiots and let it just go realizing they're just hurting themselves.

[Pax]

Thank you, my friend..