and now

And now I sit staring at the wall

Of the university wondering

What I did to deserve such hate

What I did to deserve such pain

Why can't I have one situation in life

That brings me endless joy 

That holds me down the way you once did

And now I wonder what she has that I don't

What characteristics does she have that I don't

What does she do to make you happy 

To make you smile

And now I just want to know 

Reviews

[TerryDarcy-Ryan akaSh..]

Thank you for sharing this is so heart felt. The lie is told and for some reason we follow it. This lie that when someone we have dedicated everything to makes a decision. A decision that changes our lives. We look into ourselves, to see what we did wrong. When in fact the lie is that it is not us at all. This is all about their wrongs, there is nothing wrong with us at all.

[Inject Positivity]

I understand your painful feelings my frnd, I know how tremendous the pain in situations like this... But remember when someone rejects you, it's not you who made mistake, it's always that other person's perspective, so cheer up and know that you have a worth and you deserve far better than such rejection of a person who doesn't seem to look at your real beauty...

Sincerely
Dhiman

[Giulia King]

i hate when you want to know those kind of things. i can really relate to this poem.

[Valentine]

Growing up one faces this more than once until they meet the one God has in store for you. Your first choice must have not been what God wanted for you. Keep looking. Valentine

[Anjali]

Thanks for sharing this. It is an amazing work and I could understand your feeling of despair. Since, this is something I could relate with, I better wish you not to force yourself finding out the reason for his smile with another woman. Rather you should focus on your own betterment and time will heal your wounds as well if required, it will answer you.
Until then, be positive, hopeful for a better day!

-Anjali

[Ruth]

A painful transition through life to wish to know...poignantly articulated :)

[Hebe]

...so simple.... but so true how many times do we all sit on that wall wondering why.... makes you think of your own situation .

[D Connolly]

Nony, you can be the ripest, juiciest, sweetest little peach in the whole damn world, and some people just don't like peaches.

[XO Vee]

AMEN to that ! Well said my fellow writer.

[Bala Gorthi]

Such thoughts are natural when we see that others are easily able to accomplish what we could not..
I see these kind of feelings and expressions in your writes which are very natural and common happening in people's lives. In that way your writes are very relatable all.
I always feel connected to your writes.
This write shows pain of a person who loses the love of a person she loves.
This write is touching...
Thanks for sharing..t