Chapter 10

My hand was going up and down as the bus approached the stop. Everyone got off the bus and gave me a big hug. Kyle just ignored the hug and waited for me to walk with him. I told him to start walking as Toby was at the house. He just shrugged his shoulders and walked towards the house. Shortly, I followed him. Homework for Kyle seemed a lot but it wasn’t. He had to study for his spelling test and do a math worksheet. Between me and Toby, we were gonna tag team this. It first started off with the math king and the worksheet while I started on my homework. Kyle had finished with Toby before I could finish my first assignment. I had a couple of things for homework and studying but the studying was for when Kyle was in bed. Toby didn’t bother with his homework knowing he will do it while I’m studying. Kyle had wanted to go outside almost every day. I couldn’t take him out when I had wanted to get my written homework done.

Kyle suggested that Toby could take him out. I told him that it would be his decision but I had to do my homework. My homework took the longest because I couldn’t really concentrate. My mind was wondering in every which way. At one point, I was ready to give up but all of a sudden, I got a boost of courage to finish my homework. When that was done, my next task was what to make for dinner. The idea of what to make came into my mind as I was watching Toby watch Kyle ride his bike in the street. I was able to make what I had wanted for dinner with the food I have. While it was baking in the oven, I went outside for some fresh air.  Toby has hearing like the ears of a cat. He was just smiling and enjoying the nice weather before it got too hot to go outside. I hugged Toby from behind to surprise him before I said anything to him.

“Hey, good looking.” I commented on Toby.

His hand reached up to where my hands were; around his neck and his head tipped back to where my head was.

“Whatcha got cooking?” he replied.

“Well, I have some good looking chicken in the oven and some noodles that will be mixed once it’s done cooking. Should be an interesting dinner.”

“That sounds really yummy for my tummy.”

I had wanted to stay outside and enjoy the weather but I had food cooking in the oven. When I heard the front door open and shut, I was just getting ready to serve dinner.

“Just in time,” I said as Kyle headed straight to the bathroom to clean up.

Toby’s hand was crawling towards the food when I slapped it away. Tonight’s dinner was chicken and noodles with a salad. I didn’t want any of the noodles so I had just a little bit of salad with chicken on top. It was really good. After all these years of hearing Kyle complain about chicken, he didn’t for once. And he even asked for more. Gathering from that, I must be a really good cook. When I was finished with my meal, I started up on the dishes. It was so fun loading the dish washer. Because it was a nice night, I was kicking everyone out of the house until it was dark. Angel was outside riding her bike along with her sisters. Me and Toby were walking with our hands in our pockets as we made our way to the other parents. They were just chatting about anything that had recently happened since the last time they saw each other. Part of me wanted to join in with the conversation and the other part wanted to watch the kids out on the street. Toby didn’t care for any of the adult conversation; he just wanted to be with me. Because I was torn, I stood where I could hear the children out on the street but also where I could join in on the conversation.

We stood outside until we started to become very itchy. When the mosquitoes came out, it means it’s time to go in. Toby was able to get Kyle and his bike heads toward the house. I think Toby has a way with kids just like I do. I went into the house using the front door while Toby and Kyle went through the back; that is if it’s unlocked. Very seldom is the back door left unlocked. Knowing the routine that we have, Kyle went straight to the bathroom to shower. Toby was a little bit sweaty but it wasn’t like Kyle. A huge sob was getting ready to come over me. But that’s the reason why Toby is over.  Toby came over to where I was standing and gave me a hug that was much needed. Just the feel of him made the tears go back to where they belong. It was so close to bedtime when Kyle came in to shower.

Once Kyle was out of the shower and dressed, he came out of his room asking for dessert and to watch some television before bed. I got him a cup of fruit for dessert and went into the living room. Kyle got a spoon and followed me. He got comfortable in between me and Toby and began to eat his fruit. On the top of the couch, Toby had his arm resting on top and my hand joined his. As soon as the numbers turned to read nine o’clock, Kyle started to protest. But Toby made him shut up by putting him to bed for me. It was one of those special qualities that Toby has. I followed them both to Kyle’s room after he brushed his teeth and went potty. Both of us gave Kyle a hug goodnight.  One thing I was able to do was ask Angel’s grandma if she could put Kyle on the bus for me. Well, I basically asked Angel’s mom if she could talk to her mom. What will happen is when Toby and I leave for school; I drop Kyle off at their house.

Quiet time, I thought to myself. We went into my room where we could study/ do homework and then go to bed. Toby had very little homework; I mean written homework, besides studying. After an hour into studying, I thought my eyes were going to fall off. Toby was watching me study my butt off while he’s the last minute studier.

“You know you could put the books away and study later.” Toby was teasing me.

“Yeah, well. You don’t have two major tests that could either make you or brake you, do you?”

“No, I don’t”

“Alright, then. I have to study even though my eyes hurt.”

“Then stop studying and push everything aside and relax. That’s all you need to do is relax.”

Toby’s voice was actually soothing to me so I followed his advice. I put all of my notebooks, binders, and folders in my bag where I know I can find them. Toby handed me his stuff so I could put it in his backpack which was near mine. When I climbed back into bed, I went into Toby’s opened arms.

“Thank you for being here for me and for mostly Kyle. I think he thinks of you as an older brother.”

“Don’t talk, just kiss me.” He replied before getting up to turn off the light.

When Toby got back into bed, I was the one who started to kiss him slowly. We were both enjoying it and both of us knew that we wanted more of each other. Toby’s hands were the first to explore as my hands stayed wrapped around his neck. Sooner or later, my shirt was the first off. My tank top came off with it so it was less work for Toby. I suddenly found my hands trailing down to the end of his shirt. I think I was getting a little too antsy. My mouth moved from his to his neck where my nails dug into his back and my teeth sank into his neck. While I was doing that, Toby managed to get my bra off and decided to explore my top half while I was busy enjoying his neck area. He rolled over so that I was on top and could sit on his chest. I managed to explore the entire midsection and make Toby quiver in his stomach. That was the first time I was able to make him do that. With the dark going into more darkness, Toby was able to make another smile appear on my face. Because I was on top, I decided to get more action. My hands were playing a trick on Toby. This time I was able to undo his belt without any hassle.

His boxers went with his jeans. No… scratch that. I made his boxers go down with his jeans. My eyes were lighting up with excitement. I slid down the bed a little more so I could tease him. All you heard was him moaning and trying to catch his breath. Toby attempted to turn me onto my back. This was pretty fun because we were wrestling. I felt Toby all over me and before I knew it, his shorts and my underwear was off. I was ready by the time he went into me. I let out a huge sob to a point where I didn’t want to have sex anymore. I let the sob come over me. Toby collapsed on top of me so I could wrap my arms around his neck. He was still in me but I really didn’t care. I was able to give Toby a kiss on his head when he looked up. As much as I wanted to continue on, I couldn’t. I just wanted to cuddle and have someone to just…be there for me. Toby decided to get out of me and turned over so he could lie on his back.

He let a sigh out once he rolled over. That was my cue to cuddle up next to him.

“I’m sorry. I’m so sorry. That was one of those things that I don’t do while making love to the one who loves me the most.”

Toby pulled me more onto him so my head was lying on his chest. It was really nice to have Toby there. My head may not be here but my body knows what I want. Inch by inch, my hand moved down towards the prize that it was seeking. To make things go a little quicker, he moved my hand down to where it wanted to go. I felt it go hard in my hand. I finally got my peace of mind back and was in the mood to finish what was started. It was me who went on top for a good enjoying ride. It was around midnight when the both of us finally fell asleep.

I could’ve sworn that it was just a dream but I guess not. In my dream, it was hard to see what was happening. Something had happened for me to wake up. My thoughts were all racing. I threw my tank top and his shorts on so I could go check on Kyle. He was asleep peacefully when I went in. I still wanted to make sure that he was ok. The dream was still on me and I felt horrible. I made my way into the bathroom so I could shower away this dream. When the water turned on, I allowed it to warm up. I didn’t bother waiting. Stripping off my clothes, I jumped into the shower. Hot water felt really good. Tears started to come out and my body started to shake so badly that I had to sit down in the shower. As I was crying, the water was beating on me. I cried myself back to sleep. My dream didn’t come back but a knock on the door did.

Toby entered the bathroom, half asleep, just wanting to empty his bladder. He looked over his left shoulder to see that the curtain was closed instead of opened the curtain. He wiped his eyes to make sure that his vision was playing any tricks on him. I jumped up to my feet as if a ghost scared me. By that time, the water had gone cold and I was shivering so badly.

“What were you doing in there?”

“I had a bad dream. Kyle was in that dream so I wanted to make sure he was okay. I got out of bed to check on him. I still had the chills of the dream on me so I decided to take a shower. I ended up crying and shaking that I had to sit down before falling asleep. When you came in, I woke up. When I woke up from the dream, I couldn’t breathe.”

Even though I fell asleep in the bathtub, I still had to get clean for the day as it’s time to get ready. Besides having two major tests, I was extremely tired. I did the morning routine like it was the back of my hand. Mostly everything was ready for the day except for getting dressed. I’m guessing that you think I’m walking around the house naked. Well, I must tell you to rethink again as you are wrong. Both of us were waiting for the water to warm up because of my nightmare incident. To pass the time, I made lunches for everybody except me. The only thing that I wanted was a bottle of water.  Couple minutes later, Toby went to test the water and then shower. It turns out that the hot water level has returned back to normal. Toby was calling me for an invite of a shower together. Honestly, I don’t think taking a shower together will help me forget this nightmare. I ignored the invite and carried on with my business. When I was throwing something away in the recyclables, the bathroom door opened.

Out stepped Toby with a towel around his waist and dripping wet hair. Just the way I like’em. Now was the time when I wanted Toby. I walked over to where he was standing and gave him a full on powerful kiss. It was so powerful that he had to pull me away.  Toby allowed me to give him a big hug while the towel was still wrapped around his waist. As much as I didn’t want to let go, I had to so I could go take my shower and then snuggle next to Toby while watching the news/weather. This time, I didn’t waste the water. Majority of the time, I would fuss about my hair but today again was a messy bun day. Toby was half dressed in jeans when he went into Kyle’s room to awake him. Kyle surprised him by sitting straight up when Toby touched him. As soon as Kyle saw my bedroom light on, he knew I meant business. If you asked Kyle to get dressed in the dark, he would. Kyle knows the morning routine so well that he knows what to do.

Today was one of those jeans day because I was freezing and it’s the end of May. We all sat in the living room watching the news to see what’s happening in the world. But the thing was my arms weren’t cold yet they’re shivering so I think that’s a sign that I’m cold. It’s probably from sleeping in the shower earlier this morning I snuggled up to Toby’s half dressed body. About five minutes before it was time to get ready again, Toby got up to put on his shirt. It was one of my favorite one’s because there’s writing on it that says “Have a big bowl of shut it stew.” Whenever I see that shirt, I start crackling up. There was something I was forgetting to tell Kyle. Oh well… Maybe he’ll figure it out when we begin to walk in the direction of Angel’s house. Before we started walking, I dropped my bag inside of Toby’s car so I wouldn’t have to go back into the house. On the way down, Kyle did open his mouth to speak.  

“Why are we going to Angel’s house so early in the morning?”

“Since Toby and I start school before your bus for school comes, Angel’s grandma will be putting you on the bus for the rest of the school year. But either Toby or I will be at the bus stop when you get off the bus.” I explained.

Lily was waiting outside for Kyle to arrive, while smoking her morning cigarette. She really wasn’t in a cheerful mood but I was really glad that I had someone to help me out. I had a really strange feeling when I got back to my house. Everything was closed and both of our school bags were in the backseat of his car. The driver’s side window was down so that’s where I was able to speak with Toby before off to school. I gave him a couple of quick kissed before jumping into the passenger’s side. We were finally off to school. The last day before the weekend. Toby parked in the back parking lot and the two of us got out bags to head in. Everything was hovering over my head. I hate it when things do that to me, especially now. Walking hand in hand, Toby and I entered the school.

I felt like the luckiest person in the world. Toby felt my hands become all clammy and he didn’t like it. Half of me wanted to stay with Toby but the other half wanted to know if what I was predicted was true. With a wandering mind, I left Toby in the cafeteria to go walk. Last night I had forgotten to charge my phone so I was trying to make the battery last. I also noticed that I had a text message from my mother. That made my heart skip a beat. I had wanted to know how she was making out with the basic training. My breath was coming in and out with deep sharps as I hit the view button. I stopped in the middle of the hallway to read what it said. “Hi honey,” it read. “Hope all is doing well. I understand you’re in a tight situation right now with everything that has happened to you. I wish I was there to be by your side but I’m finally doing something for myself. Send Kyle and especially Toby lots of love. Mom. Xoxox.”

The text message made me tear up but I knew I had to be strong. My wandering mind led me all over the place. When I realized how much time I had left before class, I stopped at my locker where someone was waiting for me. I was finally able to close my mind and relax. Toby had figured out that I would venture back to my locker sooner or later. I popped one of my ear buds out of my ear so I could speak and hear Toby better. This morning I was all shaky but that was because I didn’t bother to eat breakfast. Even Toby noticed that I was starting to go downhill again. I was rushing to get my materials in and out of my locker to where Toby had to hold my arms so I could calm down. My head looked towards him with a what-was-that-for-look.

“You need to calm down. You’re all shaky and jumpy and just need to relax.”

I stopped what I was doing and gave Toby a hug so the scent could overcome me. I was taking a deep breath in and out. Toby saw that I was attempting to calm down but I was attempting to calm down but I was just so jittery. When I looked up at him, he saw how wide of a smile was on my face.

“Okay, tell me what is going on?”

“I got a text message from my mom. She says she understands what she left me with and how sorry she was.”

“May I read this text message?”

“Yeah. I’ll forward it to you as my phone has very little battery.”

As I mentioned my phone, Toby reached into his pocket to check his phone. He noticed that he has one new text message and it was from Linda. It was like a piece of lint being brushed off of his shoulder. After telling Toby about the text message, I went back to finishing in my locker. I was having the antsy feeling but I couldn’t tell Toby about my speculations. The one thing I wanted to do right now was cuddle with Toby but both of us had to get to out period 4 class which was Health. Having Health in the morning actually helps me get awake especially after a night of not sleeping so well. All of a sudden, the urge to throw up started to trickle up my throat. I asked my Health teacher if I could go to the bathroom real quick before class began. In Health, we were talking about STD/STI’s and today she was gonna show us some as I came back, the teacher had the slideshow up and was starting. I couldn’t dare to look at these pictures knowing I would puke so I put my head down. The teacher yelled at me for just resting my head on the des. It wasn’t my fault that I had a bad dream. In the end, I got kicked out of class just for not looking at the STD pictures. Never in my life have I gotten kicked out. I guess there’s always a first for everything. I was very excited that I wasn’t sent down to the office otherwise I would be pissed.