Do You Ever Just Want to Run Away?

Do you ever just wanna run away
Not forever
Just long enough to let the pain slip away
Long enough to give my heart just a little time
Time to bleed
Time to heal
Time to remember why I go through this
Day after day
Never yeilding when I need a break
Trying so hard not to snap at her
But pretending like it doesn't affect me when she snaps at me
Give me time to break down this wall around me
Time to just lay in the grass
Gaze up at the stars
A place with out the drama
And pain she causes
A place where I don't have to  constantly worry
Worry about whether she'll be here tomorrow or not
Worry about her
Worry about mom
Only you and me
Give me time to think
With out music blasting next door
Or shouts of her filling the hallway
Time I know I can't find here
Time I know I shouldn't even bother looking for here
Let me release my emotions
Without holding back
Not having to be strong for anyone else
Not even me
Cuz I know that you'll be strong for me
When it's too hard for me to be strong for myself
Cuz you know in turn I'll be strong for you when you need it
But now it's time to put down this pen
And close this notebook
It's time to lay my head down
And let my dreams consume me
And all I ask is for her not to wake me up
Cuz this dream is my temporary escape from the world
The one time I don't have to conciously make the decisions
I can just close my eyes
Let my mind take me anywhere it wishes
Cuz until I can escape with you
This is all I have