Escape From Reality

If we could only have oblivion...

Skipping stones,

running along,

this shadowy path

leading me on.

Away from my present,

wanting to escape reality,

I can go any lengths

to forget ... who I really am.

At this time of life,

I would gladly accept

Amnesia ...

it would help me become

the person

everyone wants to see.

For many a times,

I have done what pleases me.

(Actually nearly always)

Seldom caring, 

for the people around me.

(My parents, my friends, my family)

Yes, they are disappointed, I know.

I can see the concern 

in their very eyes.

Dripping shame covering my eyes;

I turn my back,

and gladly welcome this oblivion ...

which will help me be

the person 

they want me to be ... 

Thank you, yet again J Todd Underhill for reading this out on your podcast! https://soundcloud.com/user-557255780/coffee-with-underhill-02-13-2017

Reviews

[JayDee]

Escaping from reality... is all we ever want to do...
Makes us feel...alive...not trapped within the bars of having to be and do what they expect of us.

This is a great write. From experience, it would not be easy to word. So well done and thank you for sharing this

[Dr. YumnaKay]

If it were that easy.. *sigh* not all wishes come true..
thank you for appreciating my work, Jay :)

[JayDee]

Yeah i know...
Pleasure Yumna

[Zainab Rangwala]

I can relate to each and every word of the writing..very well written

[Nickdykstra]

Great job detail is nice 10/10!

[Dr. YumnaKay]

Thank you for liking and reviewing ☺

[Lav]

People always want to escape the reality, but we cannot. We can go inside our heart and contemplate to find peace. The true existence comes from within.

[Dr. YumnaKay]

Yes I completely agree.. But its too easy for the heart to act in a rogue manner.. Thank you for the kind words ☺

[Tony Jordan]

The feeling of disconnect at times, of wanting to be free of 'the ties that bind' can be overwhelming at times.
It can make us appear aloof, uncaring, heartless even and can conjure in us a feeling of guilt that we are not like most of our kith and kin who love living in one anothers pockets YumnaKay.
It makes life difficult because we start to wonder if we are 'weird' and can even lead to mentall illness - the mind in a constant state of flux.
Its not as rare as you might think.

You did a great job here. I feel this was hard to put down on paper - emotionally hard. So well done.
I can relate.

[Dr. YumnaKay]

It feels nice to know that I'm not the only one weird here who thinks like this.. Thank you for your kind words. I really appreciate it ☺

[Lorry]

I think many of us would pick amnesia if it were as easy as ticking a box on a form. We try to please so many, but when we aren't being ourselves, it makes the task all the harder. Beautifully captured.

[Dr. YumnaKay]

I agree.. Thank you for the nice review ☺

[Asante]

"I can see the concern in their very eyes
Dripping shame covering my eyes"

These lines went the distance to solidify this writing for me. A wonderfully honest piece of poetry, it is something that we can all relate to in some fashion. The anxiety that comes with the validation of others, or lack thereof, before the validation of ourselves.

Easier said than done, but I hope you find that inner peace, in time. :)

This was a fine write, and I'm glad I stumbled upon it. Keep it up!

[Dr. YumnaKay]

Thank you Sante! I'm glad you could relate to this.. Much humbled by your kind words.. Thank you for liking and reviewing :)

[Asante]

My pleasure! I'm looking forward to reading more. :)

[Dr. YumnaKay]

Sure feel free :)

[Ted Kniffen]

Quite often we go through life pleasing others at the expense of our own wishes. As we age we discover that they will love us no matter what and we become our own person. Good write, YK

[Dr. YumnaKay]

Yes I agree.. I think its a balance between pleasing others and doing what we please.. Thanks you for reviewing :)

[TheAimlessWanderer]

i feel this way a lot of the time i don't know what you are personally going through but it is impossible for me to same can be said for any other person i connected to this in my own way because on almost every occasion when i interact with others i automatically cast my personality away my wants desires my feelings which honestly i don't even remember if i had any to begin with. just driven by how others felt about me always seeking external validation and never accepting myself or think i am enough as person as i am but honestly i don't know what as i am is anymore i connected deeply to this it may have not been what it is about but it still touched me all the same i felt connected to you in that moment it was really beautiful thank you for sharing i hope your struggles get a little lighter someday. great write

[Dr. YumnaKay]

I'm grateful that you felt connected.. And that you liked it.. I think everyone of us goes through a time like this once in their lives.. The main thing is to find the strength in ourselves.. The feelings you had are the same as mine.. Sometimes we feel insignificant enough...thank you for the nice wishes. I wish and hope the same for you ☺