Rose...

One side of a series of conversations. Ellipses indicate where the other person is speaking.

Hey. I know you have a bunch of packing and stuff to do and you probably don't want to talk to me right now, but I just wanted to apologize. I didn't mean to pressure you into anything or to put you into a situation you'd regret. I care about you and I don't want to hurt you and I know you have a boyfriend and I've been kicking myself all day about doing this to you and I know it's not right or fair and I am so sorry. I hate the idea that what I did might ruin what we have. We are such good friends and I would hate to lose that. I would hate to lose you...

You have no idea how bad I felt... I literally worried myself sick, I couldn't eat dinner...I was really freaking out that I had been such an idiot...

I can smell you on the shirt I wore to bed and I think I'm going insane because I still feel like I've done something terrible and I can't get past it...

So, I was going to try to say something, but I can't come up with words for this feeling in the pit of my stomach, and words are sorta my thing...

Because, for some unthinkable unknowable reason, I don't believe you... And I want to, you have to believe I want to so badly, but I can't shake this...

I don't know if I'll ever be able to forgive myself if I've broken what we have...

You're still my best friend...

Reviews

[Chloe]

I think everyone who reads this can understand where you're coming from, my dear. There are so many relationships that I had feared that I had lost due to my uncontrolled emotions. I pray that things worked out between you two.

[Jess Holden]

Straight from the heart