egg shells

in the dark of the night i fear --

i see the silence around me

and fear what feels like thousands of voices

screaming

behind your back

screaming

where you can't see

screaming

in the open daylight i fear --

i see the open space around me

and fear what feels like thousands of eyes

watching

me make a mistake

watching

my every. single. move.

watching

behind my smiles i fear--

i see the kindness around me

and fear what feels like thousands of attacks

taunting

when i'm no longer smiling

taunting

when i speak up against something

taunting

behind my poems i fear --

i see the support around me

and fear what feels like thousands of loopholes

and feel myself

slipping

down a rabbit hole of fear

slipping

cos it feels like i can't speak again

slipping