Storm cloud

I don't know how to feel
The world gave me happiness and clarity
Only for your rain cloud to once again drown me
Your uncertainty, your selfishness
Have I always been blinded?
Are you the rainstorm that my windshield wipers can't erase?
Are you sleet on my normal sunny day?
I'm crashing, or maybe I can't breathe
A lonesome person, with smothered dreams
It's always you, when will it be me?