Chapter 4

Desires of the Heart

4 I told my struggles in the past so pray for me in part. For the desires of my heart are wicked, revealed by the law and the prophets and none have persevered like me. Who is among me? Why have I not dealt with this matter? Am I far gone from living God? She, the church, is not far from me and the Spirit with me which has dragged me back into the living God, lest I fall down in the trench once more I will not forsake God in my heart. For I love my Lord and so shall you, the church. She is strong with no heartfelt wickedness. She turns to those who need your communion, a steadfast church who is ready to take heed. Beloved brothers may you not be like me, for I am not in the state of reconciliation toward goodness, but bitterness that dwells within me. At times I am lowly to my fellow men, and always ready to make myself known as imperfect. But I can do nothing of my own accord. As such, the living God takes shelter in her church. Wherever I go, I am bound to her. Wherever two or three gather, she is strung to her congregation.