You

Yes

I know you

I know you very well

The way the shadow falls under your lips

Every single glisten in your eyes, every reflection

Every shade of the different straws of your hair

Though I wish I didn't know all this

That I didn't remember

That the brain would forget

Something that the heart so desperately wants to forget

So desperately wants to destroy

The very memory of you

Makes me want to spill my guts out

Turns my stomach up and down

Turns my heart round and round

I wish I could terminate you

Erase you

That what has been done never had been done

What I had sown would die and never grow

But it grows

And it tears me apart on the inside

On the outside too

How come I have changed so much

Since you left me for good

But when the memories come to haunt me

I haven't changed at all

How come I still feel a spark

A flame when I look at you

Even after all you did to me

All the things you said to me

All the ways you broke me

All the times you killed me

All the times you lied to me

All the times you embarrassed me

All the times you disappointed me

All the times you hated me

All the times I hated you

After all these times

How come

It only takes one second

One picture

One memory

And just like that

I want to relive it all

All of those times

All of those ways

All of the pain you caused me

Again

And again