Realistic goals and dreams

I am not sure to stick with realistic goals or just dream about big unrealistic things in life

I realize that each second of my days are counted

I realize each second I waste is the total waste for humanity

I do not want to waste the limited days in this world

I just want to finish this journey as fruitful as possible

I realize that challenges are many

I want to have a redo for my mental picture and attitudes

I want to erase negative memories and contacts for ever
I am trying, even before I try I am failing

I want to keep on trying

I have long term and short term goals

I have simple and complicated dreams

I have to have a huge house

I need a BMW with my name on the number plate

I need a nanny to help me at home

I need abundance of money

I need free health insurance

I want my children as most successful

I want my family as most peaceful family

I know all these are colliding each other

So I want to pick and choose the realistic dreams

I want to have health, food and shelter

I want to have few nice friends

I want to have a structure in my personal and family life

I just need to have sleep when I got to bed for sleeping